#5
LAT
“Divi vārdi”
Agrs rīts. Ceļos augšā. Paskatos pulkstenī. Tas apstājies. Kas zina. Vai agrs?
Uzvāru kafiju. Pārāk karsta. Apdedzinu mēli. Apēdu siermaizi.
Joprojām sāp. Vai mēle? Nē, sirds. Daudz domāju.
Nomazgājos dušā. Iztīru zobus. Noskuju bārdu. Ātri saģērbjos. Atveru durvis. Atslēga saplīst. Esmu dusmīgs. Un nervozs. Kavēju darbu. Joprojām domāju. Par viņu.
Tramvajs pilns. Tas kaitina. Esmu saguris. Vēl miegains. Gribas apsēsties. Joprojām sāp. Šoreiz mēle.
Esmu darbā. Ieslēdzu datoru. Uzvāru kafiju. Atdzesēju to. Uz loga. Paskatos ārā. Spīd saule. Nebiju ievērojis. Jo auksti. Laikam rudens. Sāp sirds. Par visu. Par viņu. Par vasaru. Par sevi.
Atveru e-pastu. Daudz vēstuļu. Bet nav. Nav īstās. No viņa. Rakstu es. Ilgi domāju. Darbs paliek. Joprojām domāju. Ko rakstīt? Vai mocīties? Rakstu lēni. Un pārdomāti. Vai tiešām? Spiežu taustiņus. Kāds zvana. Darba jautājums. Es cerēju. Es domāju. Nē, lieki. Tas viss. Pielika punktu. Uzrakstu viņam. Īsa vēstule. Sen vajadzēja. Tikai frāze. Divi vārdi. “Es negribu.”
ENG
“Two words”
Early morning. I get up. Check the clock. It's stopped. Who knows. It's early?
I make coffee. Too hot. Burn my tongue. I eat a toastie.
Still hurts. The tongue? No, the heart. I think a lot.
I showered. Brush my teeth. Shave. Dressed quickly. Open the door. The key breaks. I’m angry. And nervous. Running late. Still thinking. About him.
Full tram. It's annoying. Feeling exhausted. Still sleepy. Want to sit down. Still hurts. This time - the tongue.
At work. Open the computer. Brew coffee. Cool it. On window. Look outside. Sun’s shining. I hadn't noticed. Because of the cold. It’s autumn. The heart hurts. For everything. About him. About summer. About myself.
Open emails. Many letters. But no. None are the right one. From him. I write. A long thought. Work remains. Still thinking. Write what? Or suffer? I write slowly. And thoughtfully. Truely? Pressing on the keyboard. Someone rings. About work. I had hope. I thought. No, useless. That's it. Point taken. I write to him. A short letter. Long overdue. Only a phrase. Two words. ”No, thanks.”
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